e mërkurë, 5 dhjetor 2007

How Low Can One Be??

feels like ages since the last rantings and rumblings of the restless mind. so dramatic. haha. i think i have tons to write. no, i dont think. i DO have tons to write but i dont know what to start with. hmm.. i am having mixed emotions rights now. i am happy for you that you gonna represent for Singapore but at the same time, its hard for me to let you go by yourself for 2 years. damnit. its killing me slowly. whatever you think that best for you, i wont hold against it. i would definitely miss you for sure. haizzz..



some things about me you just have NO RIGHTS to know. not even my parents, whats more YOU, fucker. stop being such a busybody. if you are fine with it, i dont mind actually but i know you too well okay. i am really annoyed. your sucks attitude simply turns me off and many times it prompts me to say nasty things. FUCK YOUU!!




i am feeling freaking down lately. sometimes i feel that i am being used. am i naive and gullible? maybe i should not be too nice. but i dont want to look like i am bad. i dont want to because i care but anybody care? complicated ehk. ohh yaa.. thanks god i got myself c grades for ALL modules last week. damnit. this time i believe that i was been DOWNGRADED. have been coming to school super late lately. maybe not lately but from since-i-dont-know-when actually. haha.. change or you never change adilah. can anyone help to knock some sense into me?? i thought i can depend on you but seems you giving me false hope. hmphh~



might as well you switch off the phone than to silent it because you would not be response it anyway. dumbass. and yaa.. dont promise me what you cant keep. mind you, it really hurts baby. hmm.. this is so random. the class have been more and more vulgarities. quite offensive many times. fucking rude. it sounds fun initially but it turns to be fucking irritating actually. haizz.. seriously they have no life. okay2.. i know this post is not a proper one and too vague but i really did that purposely. Its for me to know and for you to find out.


above all, i miss you!!